…have I been? Well, so distracted that I don’t remember if I told you all that I have started working outside the home. And by “working”, I mean 4-7 hours per week. Sound do-able? I thought so too! I mean, that’s really not a lot of time. It was a fascinating and strange process to discern whether to do this.
Here’re some rambling observations…maybe there are others out there with similar experience…
- The job is for Marriage in Christ, which I can’t recommend highly enough. Attend a seminar!
- We did one 3 years ago, and the fruit just goes on and on. For instance, I have [nearly] ceased [almost] all of my Erik Improvement Projects. If you have ever thought that you knew what your husband should be doing or should be like, you know what I mean. It is slow and subtle personal poison.
- Priorities: God comes first, our spouse second, kids third, and then everything else comes after that.
- So, what’s a gal to do when a job is for God? Does that make it a #4 or a #1 priority?!
- In fact, even if you are not working directly for a religion-based program/church…isn’t everything we do missional?
- Isn’t “missional” a word? Spell check is yelling at me right now.
- Even at only 5 hours a week, and even if I do most of it while they nap, I still feel divided. My attention is divided. The kids are affected by this.
- Exactly a week ago plus 2.18 hours [this means dinner prep time and is also known as
“the witching hour”. Anyone with young kids knows what I mean.], I was helping my daughter tape something, but all I could think about was washing lettuce for dinner. When I finally headed into the kitchen I just HAD to call our babysitter’s mother first to set something up for Monday. She happened to ring me at that second, and we talked about Monday and 2 other things (by the way, about Monday I had to call her TWO more times to clarify because I was so distracted by unwashed lettuce the first time), and all the sudden I look down, and one of the kids is whining loudly and hitting me.
- For how long had they been hitting me?
- For how long had they been whining?
- I don’t know.
- In what other occupation can a person be abused, and not even notice it?
Motherhood is interesting.
The end, and God bless you!